Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Hello there Chubette

Pushin maximum density I am.
It's pathetic yet I still eat ice cream.
Tomorrow, back to WW.
I want to stick to it.
I want to lose weight.
I want to get rid of my pouch.
Ok, it's not really a pouch, more of a parachute but it must be gone.

Now, how can one minute I be in a good mood & the next I am rather depressed & sad.
Yesterday was the best.
I got to spend time with my Cheekers.
Watch him all day. Yes I was exhausted at the end of the day but he's mine, so it's all worth it.
(Mad props to Erin, who does this every M-F...she's the only 24 yr old I know who isn't an official parent that is too pooped to poop on a Friday sometimes! LOL).

I am just upset.
I'm not where I want to be.
Lot going on in my head.
If I let it out, you will all think I'm nuts.
If I keep it in, I will be nuts.
Let out ~ cry
Let in ~ cry
Maybe I'm just tired.
Yes.
Yes.
That's the ticket.
I'm tired.

Woops out~!

5 comments:

skrpndiva

Oh Meghan, believe me honey, I'm right there with you. So many bad things going on in my life right now...I don't even know how to get my hands around it all!

So sorry you are depressed. I am fighting the battle of the bulge too. After losing all that weight last year, I've gained all of it back. I blame the hysterectomy. Everyone I know that has had one has had problems gaining. Not a side effect that the doctor tells you about.

That coupled with the fact that we are almost bankrupt and hubby has not much income due to the market in California and school starting again soon ... All I can say is ARGH.

That and you are definitely not alone. I know that probably doesn't make you feel better, but I'm not where I want to be nor where I thought I'd be at this point in life!

Wish I were closer so we could work it out together!!!

OneScrappyChick

Oh Meg honey... ((Hugs))

Lissa Ballard

Bless your heart hon, I can sympathize with you. You do need to let it out though - even if you just go into the bathroom and talk to the mirror.

I find it therapeutic to write it out and you being the english major can easily relate to the written word. Write it down woman and get it out of your head... You're much too sweet to let it eat you alive.

No matter what, get the depression to go away and your weight will too... This I know for a fact...

Keeping a prayer for you!

Hugs
Lis

P.S. You too Jacquie!

jayedee

there's something on my blog for you girlie!

~wtq~

You got love coming coming from me too, girler!!! A) I don't care what you weigh, I've been UP, I've been DOWN, both physically and emotionall, and well, I say balance is the best thing! Oh, I must have been goign to say something else since I said A). So Um, B) You got your cheekers!!! YAY!!! And C) You are just adorable exactly the way you are. Seriously! I used to get so excited to show people my "before" and "after" pictures, and they would tell me that I was just as beautiful in the before pictures, but yes, there was a big difference and they could tell I put in a lot of work. So just remember, beauty isn't in weight, beauty is INSIDE!!! Weight is just baggage that we gotta sort through and get rid of. :p