What I've Been Stuggling With

Some of you may have noticed I have not been blogging here much.
Lately, it just seems like nothing worthwhile has been going on.
Although a lot has been going on.

At least in my head it has.
I've been having anxiety attacks left & right, all day & all night.

They started on the weekends back in the fall.
Especially on Saturdays.

It seems like if I don't get up, jump in the shower & get started on the days chores & errands I will get an upset stomach, my heart will start racing a mile a minute and my head starts to hurt.

Gets worse once I am at the supermarket, as well.  I feel like I am not going fast enough for people so my heart will start to race while checking out & then bagging.

The anxiety has started to affect me during the week.  Not too bad at work, yet, but my the attacks will hit after dinner...I think to myself "Do I have enough time to do this? that? Will I get enough sleep? How will I get my stuff done in the morning?" 

Our financial woes are at a all time high, so I know that has a lot to do it with it.  I just worry all the time. 

The worse part is about 3 days after my little monthly friends disappears.  People can't talk to me without me wanting to cry. 

I try not to let things bother me or to let it go but the anxiety just isn't going away with those thing.

I already take Celexa and I'm not going to lie, I've been known to take a Benadryl or two when I need help going to sleep.  Although the last time I took one, it didn't make me tired at all...although my nose was clear!

Worries just seem to always be there.  The anxiety has gotten so bad now that I am trying to use breating techniques to help calm me down..so far...no good.

Perhaps sharing that I have anxiety will help. 

Do you have it? Do you have any methods to help you cope? 

It just seems to be getting harder day by day.

I promise my next post will be more uplifting.  I swear I am not a Debbie Downer just wanted to share.