Do you ever......

feel like you are a doormat, that you get walked all over? Do you ever feel like you carry such a burden or that you are a burden? Do you ever just feel like you aren't important to the one person you should be important to? Do you feel disappointment in people? life? yourself?

Pretty much sums me up.

They have Extreme Makeover
They have Extreme Home Makeover.

Where is Extreme Life Makeover????? I need that.

I want to keep the same people in my life just change certain situations.
I want to be able to let the burden I feel fall off my shoulders (I haven't since I was a little girl, so I doubt 30 yrs later it will), I want to feel important to someone. I want to be put first, not told that something I really want isn't important at this time. I am sick of waiting patiently by the sidelines. It seems that's all I do. I wait, I feel less important, I feel disappointment. Yep. Where is that Ty Pennington with his extreme life makeover?

Sometimes I don't think people realize that what they say can hurt. Even if they are kidding. Or maybe it's what they don't say, that can hurt. Or what they say, then don't follow through with what they say.

Sure, I know I am guilty of saying something & hurting someone, or not saying something or worse, saying it & not following through but not following through is usually done on non-important stuff. Although that old adage stands true, what is one man's trash is another's treasure. So what is important to me, is not important to someone else.

So I wait.
Patiently.
Sadly.
Just wait.
Hear excuse after excuse.
Get told it's not important at this time.
Hmph.