Sunday, Sunday, Sundae

Notice the spelling difference? That is b/c the Bobster just made me a Sundae! Can you stand it? It's Phish food, Magic Shell & Whipped Cream. Chocolate overload but damn it's good! I couldn't eat all my dinner that he cooked. Yes he cooked. That's like 3x's this week. I can definitely eat all my Sundae tho. I mean I would give preggo's a bad name if I didn't eat the Sundae!!!

Speaking of pregnant women...I must be huge. The Bobster & my mom & sister say I am enormous. Good for the ego. Anyway yesterday we ran to Target then down the shore. Well while waiting outside Target for him to bring my chariot so I didn't have to walk in this God awful heat, I hear Hi! I turn & there is this chicky there & she says "When are you due?" So I give her the quick synopsis, tell her just how big Ethan is & she says "Girrrrrrrrrrrrl , 2 words for you....C-SECTION~!" Um, yea!

Then we go down the shore & stop at a diner on the way home for dinner. I walk in, the hostess who is prob. in her fifties, says how many, I say 4. She looks at me & says "OOOH, NO BOOTH FOR YOU!" Ok, I am seeing a pattern here! Then she tells me to please not give birth in her restaurant. Ok, not sanitary!!! Upon checking out I have a "mom-mom" ask me "Are you going to make it home?" So I give her the quick run down, yadda yadda, 10lbs, Aug 16th, yadda yadda. She agrees with everyone else & says I am not going to make it!

So I waddle out of the restaurant & the mom-mom & her friend are behind me about 3 feet. I hear them say "Oh look at her legs, look at her ankles, so swollen, poor thing" All that was missing was oiy've!

Of course, I forgot to mention that this pass Monday I went to Philly to meet friend's for lunch & as I waddled thru. the parking lot I hear "Oh Girl, you are huge!", "Girl, your dropped!", "Congratulations", "Oh she's gonna go anyday!"

Ok people! I am getting the big picture here. Yes I look like a float in the Macy's Thanksgiving Parade. Where are my handlers????

So hopefully I will get him out a little sooner than the 16th. I go to the dr on Thursday & will talk to them then. We shall see. The child has a 10 cm size head....just like his Charlie Brown looking head of a father! & you know you only dialate to 10 cms. Hello! He will shred me to pieces if I go vaginal.

I don't know how the women did it back in the day. Like the 1800's. Workign the fields, taking care of the house, no air conditioning or indoor plumbing. It's a miracle the human race has survived!!

Now onto my other dilemma. My sleep pattern. I am getting up everyday at 4:30. Altho. last night I was sleeping just fine when the Bobster came in to go to sleep in our bed. He was in the living room sleepipng with Tim & Chris. Well he woke me up b/c I was smack in the middle & I couldn't get back to sleep. I actually had tears in my eyes & cried. I am so exhausted. I know it will get worse, the lack of sleep, once the bambino arrives but that is different. O well...no use complaining. I will be giving birth soon! So excited to see Ethan but very nervous about the c-section. Scarey stuff!

Enough rambling.

Woops out!

Baby Update

Ok, got a call last night. I have to go c-section b/c he is such a big boy.

This morning I got another call to let me know they have scheduled me for Aug 16th. This is my Schmeggy's birthday, so Ethan will be sharing his birthday with his "Aunt Meg". That is if I don't go into labor prior. Everyone thinks I will go earlier.

Last night he was right up against my right side. The bugger didn't move all night so it made laying down impossible. Not mention my pelvic region feels as if a cinderblock is lying on it! Oiy've!

So I guess in reality, it's any day now for him to make his grand arrival.

Woops, out!

35 weeks

Ok, not so bad. 35 weeks I am. That's the baby's profile & hand above. He likes to sleep very dramatically!

Anyway even tho. I am 35 weeks, I measure 39 weeks. I only gained 1/2lb this time. 24.5 lbs total....not too bad!

On another note, I had my u/s to measure to see an estimate of how big Ethan is as of today. Are you all sitting down????!!!!!????? He measures 9lbs 14oz! HELLO! I have 4 weeks to go. I will be giving birth to a toddler! The u/s tech said they will review my photos & talk to me next week. She said they do not induce before 37 weeks.

Now he is in position & my cervix is soft. The nurse practitioner said he is very low but I am not dialated. I guess he could come on his on at any minute. Guess I should do more of his wash. :>)

I have a feeling he is going to come the week I am supposed to move. Gots to get to packing!

Woops out!

Chubbies

Ok check those babies out. My God! Look at the cheeks. Altho. look at the cheeks on my Grandpop....CHUBS! All of them. Check out those twins. My dad & Uncle Lester. HOLY BALONEY....they were fat!
Is my little Ethan destined to have those cheeks???? Will he have roly poly arms with dimples in them? On could hope. Man, do I love chubs!

Now I must profusely apologize to my Aunt Darlene. I have to mention her so I have also posted a pic of her & my stylish mom back in the day. The pic was taken in the 60's. Before kids for both. Now what is my aunt doing.....she is a truck drivin mama! That's right big ole cab, long trailer & naked girly mudflaps! So if you see her on the road, watch out! I love my Aunt Darlene...she bought me Chinese shoes when my mom said no! Now that's an Aunt for ya.

On a side note, let me just say, since this is my blog, I can blog about what I want, so I will just say that the dry spell is over, the river has opened! Yes, cryptic but think hard & you will get it ;>)

Tagged
Diana tagged me so here I go:
7 People That I Admire:
My mom
My dad
Kathy P
Megan
Spencer W. Kimball
My sister
can only come up with 6..hhhhmmmmm

7 things I say often:
Whatever
Yea, ok!
This is Meghan
Come on!
Cool beans
*@&#^$
*#@$er
(the last two are new words I have adapted in the latter part of my pregnancy)

7 things I cannot do:
bend over any longer
stay awake
sleep (ironic isn't it!)
tie a cherry stem in a knot with my tongue
my hair (my mom says my arms are just long things with dead stumps at the end)
bend my thumbs backwards
lately, cook!

7 things you might not know about me:
I met Regis Philbin
I was on Dancin On Air (w/ Kelly Ripa)
I had to take 9th & 10th grade gym in 10th grade b/c I failed 9th grade gym.
I had to take 10th & 11th grade gym in 11th grade b/c I failed 10th grade gym.
I didn't get my drivers license til I was 21.
I met the Bobster on a blind date.
I dated several guys I met on the internet (even married one jerk!)

7 movies I enjoy:
Steel Magnolias
The Matchmaker (w/ Janine Garofalo & Dennis Leary)
Circle of Friends
Breakfast Club
Sixteen Candles
Pretty in Pink
Ferris Bueller's Day Off

7 things I wish I could change in my life:
Wish I could be a stronger person on my own
My weight, after I give birth
My financial situation but that would require me being able to do #1
My emotional state
My feeling of sheer self helplessness
My moaning in my sleep
My stress level (see immediately above...that is the side effect of the stress)


7 books I have read and would read again:
The Narrative of Frederick Douglas
The Hours
Flowers in the Attic
Anything by Sandra Brown
What to Expect when you are expecting
Any scrapbook idea book
Hmmm...I have no idea

7 people who should do this~!:
Abby Key
Kathy Carr
Tara
Jodster
Jacquie
Briana
Erin

#67 & Pre-Registered

Ah, I was challenged to do the scraplift challenge at www.just4keeps.com so I said OK. Well while we had the girls today, they took a nap, yea! & I scrapped. For some reason tho. my scanner cuts off the bottom of the layout so you can't see the doodles. The circles in the middle of the circle spell "MILLER." My mom's last name. So yes, that is the Nana & her hubby. I went very freestylin with this layout. I don't know if I truely like it or not but it's a good photo of them. Plus it's #67 for the year & my goal was 60. I put all my stuff away tho. Got tired of looking at it. I have to go through it again & again & put stuff in a bag for freecycle. Less to move.

I pre-registered last night at like 1am for the hospital. That's done, so now when I go in with labor pains they will just confirm with me, instead of asking me to fill it all out. Nice service Virtua Health Voorhess provides!

Not feeling to great today. Upsetting day. My whole body hurts, especially the pelvic region. OUCH! I get tired just sitting up but lying down is uncomfy too. Well no more complaining from me. I will just keep it to myself & go about my business. For now anyway!~

Waiting for my 2 best friends to pick me up. They are taking me to On the Border for my birthday, which is Sunday. Send presents! Hee hee.

Must run, I think the baby just kicked my bladder so hard it fell out!

Christmas In July

Here is a sneaky peeky of a layout I did for the newsletter for www.theuntamedscrapper.com It's the Aftermath one. The Christmas Joy one is actually for a challenge that was issued at www.scrapbookjungle.com & www.just4keeps.com & fit in with the theme at Untamed. I killed like 3 birds with one stone on that layout. Anyway the first one is just all the wrapping leftover from Christmas morning. The other one, well shield your eyes, I know I am not pretty when in the morning. Hee hee. You know what? I don't care! I scrap everything. That's how my family sees me, so why not show the blogging world!

Non scrap related....this staying home thing is working out. I am back to watching Days of Our Lives & I must say that they brought back Steve & Kayla. Oh yea, I am happy as a pig in poop. The last time anyone saw Steve, he was dead. Really , tho., is anyone ever dead on soaps. The last scene you saw was his coffin being switched out with another one. Dun, dun, dun! Yes, you have figured it out. He has amnesia & doesn't remember anything, other than waking up in a bar with a name, different of course, & no memory of his previous life. Alas, his wife Kayla is trying to help him remember & thinks that Stefano DiMeara is behind his memory loss. Now that should be interesting if they try to bring Stefano back b/c the actor that plays him & should be the only one to play him, died. O well. For the next 10 weeks or so....I will be watching this. Then I am going to have to start to tape it!

Consesus is saying that I am going to go early. I've dropped. I thought I dropped the other day but Bobby said no. Two days later, he's like "Oh wow...you dropped!" He gives me three weeks. My mom says I am going early as well. Guess I should pack a bag & get the diaper bag ready. I guess they are really going to send me home from the hospital with a baby! Um, don't they know I can't even maintain a silk plant? So anyone who wants to come by & help, feel free!

Woops out!

HOME

I am home now. Wasn't supposed to go out til July 28th but my ob/gyn took pity on me last night & wrote me out. Adema & depression. She even gave me a script for Zoloft. Not sure if I will take it. I am not getting paid b/c the state will not recognize those two reasons as good enough to be out of work but I am home now, so I can pack & take it at my own pace. Which is similar to a snails, except slower.

In this state you get 4 weeks before & 6 weeks after. Now, of course, my paperwork hasn't even been sent to the state yet & with the state being shut down for a week, well we all know the word 'BACKLOG'. Yes, yes, must love living in NJ.

Sundae

See that up there...that is a sundae. Now the sundae that I make looks nothing like that BUT I put my heart & soul into it. I keep ice cream in the house now along with magic shell (gots to have the shell!), whipped cream, which is requested & I lovingly buy weekly although I am happy with coolwhip & even started to keep marachino cherries in the house.

About 3x's a week I will ask my beloved, "Honey I am going to make sundae, would you like one?" "Oh you are?" all wide eyed & innocent he asks "Sure would you make me one?" So I skip to the kitchen with the bunnies & mice following me, while butterflies fly around my head & I make my sundae & his. I make good sundaes too. Just the right amount of magic shell.

Now imagine my surprise when about 10 minutes ago, Honeypie leaves the room. So I yell, can you get me some kool aid. Oh no honey we are out of kool aid. Apparantly the recipe for Kool Aid was lost in the great firework capades that must have occured over the weekend. So I lovingly replied "That's ok, can you bring me some water".

Here is where the night goes bad. He comes in & hands me my water. What a sweetheart correct? NOPE! He then says to me "Honey could you turn that light on?" Now this is questionable b/c Stevie Wonder watches tv in the dark, so I say "Sure", as I turn it on I turn to look at him & do you know what he is doing......??????!!!!!!????

The RAT BASTARD is eating a SUNDAE!!!!!! YES A FREAKIN SUNDAE!!! Apparantly it is too difficult to ask his pregnant, swollen, will do anything for him, makes him a sundae at the drop of a hat, BABY'S MAMA (b/c we all know how I love that term!) if I would like a sundae. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! He just sat there & sucked it up! Smacked those lips like it was his last supper. While I sat here, drinking my warm water since honeypie never put any ice in it! So there you have it. He even was laying in bed, sucking down the ice cream sundae laying on my pillows. RAT BASTARD I TELL YOU!

This is my life!

Woops out!

Caption for Photo per Timmy:

HELLO CLARICE!

BAAAHAAAHAAA

Prada & Brownie Batter

I rock! Yes, I do, yes I do. Why? Because I let Chris & Dan lick the batter from the Brownies I made today (which by the way, are very, very good!)
See my mom would probably have some sort of kniption fit at this. Per her, their are raw eggs in that & that could cause a case of salmonella. Now I didn't let them eat the batter, just lick the spoon & bowl. Dan took 2 licks & called it a day. Chris went to town. Now call me crazy but in my 35 years I have never heard of anyone getting salmonella from eating the batter. So as a child, I got to lick occasionally but my mom always stood there, waiting to pounce, so I didn't lick too much when I did lick. So I have to tell the Nana, that when Ethan is old enough to lick, he will lick. I will lick. I did not lick today. I held back just b/c of the raw egg...I didn't want Ethan to get sick. Never know what it could do to the forming child. So see mom, I do listen, somewhat.

Now Prada~! Went & saw The Devil Wear Prada. I loved it. I read the book & they made a lot of changes but I loved it. I even liked Meryl Streep in it & I hate her! Her & Dennis Hopper are the 2 worse actors in Hollywood in my opinion. I mean they aren't bad it's just that I hate them. The boys saw the new Superman & every one of them said it sucked! Sucked so bad they wanted to leave. O well. Live & learn.

Woops, out!

Showers & The ER

I had my shower on Sunday. It couldn't have been more perfect! My sister did an outstanding job. I got tons of stuff, the food was great & the hall was decorated wonderfully.

All the most important people in my life where there. Those that weren't either had a very good excuse or just didn't RSVP. O well.

As for the ER. Yea, ended up there yesterday with pain in my back so severe I cried & in my chest. Ends up it's gallstones! Oiyve! Just what I needed.

Short but sweet! Woops out!

HUMAN PIN CUSHION

Yes, that was me yesterday. I had to have my 3 hr. Gluoca Test done. I thought they were just going to prick my finger & out I would go. Yea, um, not so much. I get there, they take some blood, then every hour for 3 hours they take some more. They got 3 viles out of my left arm but the last vile was taken out of my right b/c the left collapsed. I am so bruised, looks as if I was beaten with a baseball bat! I had my own waiting room tho. They told me I was a preferred customer. It had a recliner, magazines & a tv w/ cable. I watched The Baby Story.

Yea, let's discuss this whole labor & delivery thing. I was all over the water birth action til I found out. . . no epidural! Not gonna happen. Next I see women get the epidural & still have pain. So I have decided that I am not sure how "Ethan Michael" will make his grand debut but I'm not pushing him out & I am not too keen on a c-section!

Still dealing with personal issues that are really bothering me. I just feel like I am pushed to the side or better yet taken for granted. I don't know what to do about it. I have discussed it with the person but it get's better for like an hour. It's getting harder & harder to deal with, so I don't know if it's the extra pregnancy hormones or I just can't take it. Time will tell, right?

Woops, out!

So long since I blogged.

I bet my Aunt Patty is checking in here wondering why there have been no new entries. Just busy or lazy or nothing to write.

The above photo is my nursery theme. Is it not the cutest!!!???? I was just on ebay searching for stuff to go with it & found the cutest pegboard that is part of the theme. I bid on it! It was only 9.99....I doubt I will get outbidded & if I do, watch out, because I don't take highly to being outbidded!

I stayed home from work today. 4th sick day in 5 weeks. I just couldn't do it. I feel like I am an old lady. To all you women who have been pregnant before why is it, when newly preggy women say we are pregnant, you say Congrats & leave it at that? Hello, McFly...you need to tell us about the fact that your belly hurts on a daily basis, the your who-who feels as if it is swollen to the size of a football & if you try to move you usually experience shooting pains or how about when you lay in one position at night for too long, you suddenly feel as if arthrites has set in. Come on girls, do a PSA & let the women who have never been preggy before know! Not to mention, the mood swings. Altho. lately I have been experiencing more depressive mood swings. Just a lot going on in my personal life & I feel like it's all on my shoulders & if I don't do it, then it won't get done.

News on my bil: He had surgery Tues. He is alert & awake & they expect he will only loose 50-60% rotater movement of his neck BUT he has use of his arms & legs. He will have to go to therapy tho! They are talking about possibly sending him home in a few days. WoW! They don't let you wallow in self pity do they?

I have my gluoca test tomorrow. I failed the first one...CAN YOU STAND IT!!?????!!!! Tomorrow is the 3hr one...wish me luck! Then it's off to work. So to make matters worse, I call out today & I will be 3hrs late tomorrow. They are really understanding but I don't want to take advantage. I think I have about 5 weeks left before I can leave on maternity. I am so looking forward to it. I am thinking "Ethan" is going to make his arrival either Aug 28th (which will be our one year anniversary together....yea, talk about moving quickly!) or sometime over the Labor Day weekend. The momma instinct in me is saying Labor Day weekend! I guess he get's here, when he get's here.

I used my Amazon Reward g/c last night. I got this new scrapbook idea book by Laurie Stamos called Artful Memories...been eyeing that bad boy up for awhile & I ordered Clean & Simple the Sequel by Cathy Zielske. The latter shipped today. Can't wait to get my hot little hands on it. Gosh knows I need more idea books. I'm an idea book junkie! I admit it. That's the first step isn't it????

Woops, out!

Elimination, Father's Day & Prayers

Well, that my friends, is my suck ass layout that I entered into Round II at www.just4keeps.com We had to use symbols & shapes. I couldn't think of squat so that's what I came up with. As you can tell by my writing I was eliminated. That's ok tho. So much to do this week that I probably couldn't have done the challenge anyway. I was surprised to make it to Round II.

Today is Father's Day. Having my dad over for brunch. I made "Stuff French Toast" & "Funeral Potatoes". All while suffering from ham hock feet & the baby pinching my sides. O well, that French Toast stuff is soooooooo worth it. I will post the recipe later. Megan made it for our dinner club & OMG! FAB-U-LOUS! We were going to go to a carnival with the Bobster's dad but plans have changed.

This is why I need your prayers. My bil to be is a dirt track race car driver. Last night he wrecked his car. Someone let him borrow his car for the "feature" race. Sadly Chucky wrecked that car. It left him unconcious & he had to be airlifted to a local hospital. He became alert but the dr's found that he broke his neck. As of last night, he could move his body parts BUT the dr's said that once the swelling goes down that could all change & he could be paralyzed. The family is indeed upset! Bobby thinks if he had been at the races that wouldn't have happened. Bobby stayed home b/c we have the boys & Chris has a high temperature. They are going to be transporting him to the University of Jefferson in Philly. This hospital specializes in spinal cord injuries. On another note, even tho. he has health insurance, it doesn't cover racing accidents. He didn't have racer's insurance either. Right now no one is worried about the medical costs, we all just want Chucky to recover. So anyone who reads my blog, please keep him in your prayers. This is going to be a scarey time for the family.

For your viewing pleasure.
Me @ 29 weeks.
Just call me ORKA!

New Layout:

Whose that you ask? That is the Schmegg. My Schmeggy.
I did this layout for Round 1 of Last Scrapper Standing at www.just4keeps.com
This layout was to include doodling that was inspired by henna tattoos.
I must have done an ok job b/c I am advancing to round 2. Yea me!

Nothing new in the scrapworld. Got my new Simply Scrapbooks mag yesterday. Haven't madeit pass page 25.

I am getting a free subscription to Scrapbook Answers mag b/c the website I ordered the Bobster's mag from, never sent it & I pitched a fit. I ended up talking to the VP of the website who straightened everything out & got me a free sub for my troubles. I wanted my money back but the free sub is just as good, considering I buy the mag anyway.

I will be going through mags & idea books soon. Have to get rid of stuff. Less stuff to move!

I am 29 weeks today. Do you know that means less than 11 weeks til my due date? HOLEY MOLEY! I don't think I can get any bigger. Although every tells me I will.

My groin is killing me. Not to mention my nightly pee schedule. That is so fun. As of Thursday none of my shoes but my Sketchers fit me. Yes my feet now look like ham hocks. Even if I don't eat salty foods. Did you know yogurt has like 150mg's of sodium in it? Yea, shocked the bejeezes out of me. BTW, WaWa's Low Fat yougurt is scrumpdiddliumptious. If you are in the area of a WaWa, try some. Y ou will love it.

For those not in the know...WaWa is a convenient store that rocks the Delaware Valley. They are branching out I hear so look for one coming soon to your area.

Woops, out!

Feeling

a little better today than I have been. Still don't want to get out of bed in the morning but this too shall pass.

Well, I am moving. When you ask? Well, Aug 15th. Nothing like cutting it close. Where you want to know? To the place I grew up. One block from my mom & 7 minutes from my dad. We got a 3 bedroom townhouse. It's an older complex so I do't have all the amenities BUT my son will have his own room & that is really, super important to me. So for anyone who is wondering what to buy me for my shower.....please pic the decor for the bedroom from my registry. *Subtle hint* I tried to get the complex to let me in as early as possible since the raspberry is due on Aug 26th but if I go into labor & deliver, The Bobster will have to move himself! BAAHAAHAA!

Ok, so noone told me that the further you get along in your pregnancy, the more uncomfortable it is to lie down & sleep. Do you know I actually have to sit up to turn over & my belly hurts so bad, that I groan & grunt all night long. I am still swelling but my blood pressure is good. I go Monday night for my gluca test. Wish me luck. I am a carb addict.

Did a little scrapping tonight. Made my goal of 60 layouts for the year! YES! I would share the layout but I am in the Last Scrapper Standing III contest @ www.just4keeps.com, so my layout needs to be voted on. If you are a member there, go check out the competition. The votes will be going on through the weekend, I think. I need to go through all my mags & idea books & get rid of stuff. The less stuff to move the better. Not too mention I won't have as much space as I do know. I will be I won't. Closet space is at a premium in this townhouse plus the 3rd bedroom will be for Tim & Chris. They will actually have a place to keep all the video crap (I mean...stuff) & they can play in their room or actually go outside & play on the grass. My townhome is directly across from the community pool. It closes 2 weeks after we move in BUT the kids can make use of it, til then. Not to mention there is a playground right across the street. It's a nice area. I hope to be there just a year & then get a house but if I am there longer, then so be it.

Was watching Chris Botti live tonight on PBS. He is such a cutie & so talented. He is the one thing I learned to like when married to F&cko! He was such a big fan, played his CD's over & over & took me to see him so many times in concert that I feel in love with Chris Botti & his music. I actually harbour a secret crush on his bass player & F*cko knew it. I think it bothered him. BAAHAAHAA! The Bobster is not into Chris Botti or music like that. He is a true country boy with a little rap mixed in for good measure. I am actually starting to like some of the country music, like that song by Mr. Easy on the Eyes, Brad Paisley, "Alcohol". Fun tune! Then you have "Save a Horse, Ride a Cowboy". I like that one too!

Woops, out!

I want

to go far away. I want to get away from it. I need time b/c I just can't take it anymore.

Here I sit....

miserable. Why? Hmmm...1st & foremost I have diaper rash. It's the only way to describe it. It hurts so bad that I can barely walk. I even bought Desitin & put it on. No relief, although it took about 5 minutes of scrubbing with the nail brush & soap to get it off my fingers. Must be water resistant.

I can't get comfy. Nope. Doesn't matter what I do. The belly hurts. It seems like it's going to be a long way until August.

Most of all, I came to realize today that I just can not get ahead. No matter what I do, I can't get my child what I want for him. (He's not even here yet). All the places I look at to rent are soooooooooooo expensive & to buy a home is the same or more money. You would think 15K to put down would help you. NOPE! They tell you they want 10% or more. Of course I am looking at houses that I like but are not what I really want. I want the big house, with the big yard & the beautiful kitchen etc. I know it takes time to get these things but I just don't get the people who are my age or younger & have it. I have worked had to get where I am at. I endured a loveless marriage (altho. not on my end), I endured an icky divorce and a firing. I know I'm whining but today is the day for whining. Sorry.

Then I price cribs. Holy Moley.....stay clear of BabyUSA & Bellini. You might as well take out a mortgage for the crib.

I want to be married. Yes, I know, closing the barn door after the horse got out but I would feel better about myself & for my son if moi & his father were married before he was born. Even if it's only a month before his debut, I would feel better. Now you might ask what the hold up is, hmph. Someone needs to get HIS divorce papers. It's only the matter of taking two minutes to write the letter but it falls on me. *SIGH* Guess I should just bite the bullet & do it. Once they arrive we have to apply for the license. EZ Peasy right? Sure if we could both have an aftermoon or a morning off to do it. Then again we just started new jobs, so you do the math!

Most of all, I am very, very upset that I will not be able to be SAHM. That's what I wanted. That's what I think is best for the baby but sadly, no can do. I don't know how people do it. I know there are plenty of people in the world who make what we do or even less & they manage. HOW???? What is the magic trick???? Someone tell me. Although if I can't find daycare, I will end up being a SAHM. I would even take a WAHM, but that's not an option for me, at least not yet. Maybe in the future.

I must be in a nesting mode today. I spent the day in front of the TV watching the Food network. Ask anyone I know & they will tell you, Meghan doesn't watch the food network, Meghan doesn't really cook.
Well I surprised everyone, I cooked dinner tonight. Sure hamburgers & fries but lately in my house, it's been cereal. Would have prob. been cereal tonight but 1. I had the guilts for not really cooking laterly & 2. We are out of cereal.

Woops, out!